Yeah I got a boyfriend and we're not really gonna celebrate much. Not his style, but who needs a special day when every day you can say "I love you" and feel like you got soething pretty right. So instead, I'd like to send a little bit of a different Valentine in the abstract, recognizing that the right person requires the right me and that if I am able to accept and nourish love today, it is at least partially the due of what has come before. In that spirit:
To those of you...
Who shared a heady glimpse of your innermost selves with me and changed my understanding of the universe with the depths I saw there...
Who offered your hearts wholly when my hands were too full to receive them and showed me that to be loved is both an inestimable honor and a weighty responsibility...
Who held me when I cried and whose tears wet my shoulder...
Who cooked me grilled cheese sandwiches and tomato soup at midnight, baked me dutch pancakes at dawn, sipped champagne from red vines with me, and munched fancy fruits and cheeses with me on makeshift picnic blankets in your living rooms...
Who trekked through snow storms to buy me orange juice for my sniffles and rescued me when some forgetfulness left me stranded and resourceless...
Who rolled down hills, screamed on rollercoasters and set the dancefloor ablaze with me...
Who stopped my heart with a bashful grin and a breathless "you look... wow!" from which I would never recover.
Who left a heady trace of your cologne on my skin after knee-jellying embraces...
Who made my heart race, my skin tingle, my stomach churn and my mind race...
Who inspired me to scream myself hoarse and taught me the value of fighting fair, even if we never quite did...
Who helped me trace the boundaries of lust, friendship, affection, ego, and love... to enjoy the unadulterated delights of each, and the delicious moments where they intersect...
Who hinted at sweet possibilities that could never be, but which taught me the meaning of so many things that maybe could...
Who became the truest and fastest of friends...
Who showed me the limitations and irresistible temptations inherent to those friendships...
Who allowed me to explore and memorize each line of your body and enabled me to feel truly embodied in your presence...
Who shared a chaste and bittersweet devotion unlike anything overt romance could ever offer...
Who taught me to know the right thing from the not-quite right and gave me the courage and optimism to set my sights for the former...
Who set me free to find the right thing and the right love, even when it was hard and even if I fought you...
I would not be who I am or where I am if not for you and I am honored to have shared some small portion of my lives with you. Happy Valentine's Day.
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